I have always had a lot of guy friends growing up.....I'm not sure why (bc I'm the illest nigga in Nebraska?), but I have. Of course I had my home girls.....my main circle in like HIGH SCHOOL or whatever. But I had way more close guy friends than close girl friends. But as we've gotten older and hopefully wiser, I'm stepping back and looking at some of these friends as just MEN. I have so much more access to my dudes than I had before, with sites like twitter and what not. & sometimes its almost PAINFUL to read some of the things they say or think about. Many refer to women as BITCHES, or tweet about how "Bitches ain't shit" and blah blah blah. I know I'm not a bitch and that they're more than likely NOT talking about me, but that is a GENERAL statement. Did I not set a good enough example growing up with these guys? I was the funny good girl in High School and pretty much still am, so why don't they think about me or girls like me when they tweet shit like "All bitches are fuckin!" or something just as equally objectifying/degrading? I would never tweet no shit like "Niggas ain't SHIT." Why?...because I know some niggas who don't fit in the "Ain't SHIT" category, & I always think about them whenever I may FEEL like generalizing all men. But I can't expect everyone to do what I do. I guess some people aren't the way they used to be....or maybe I never knew this side of them. So many of my friends do things in regards to women that it makes me almost ashamed to say I'm their friend. Maybe they'll say I'm the one that's change...who knows.....I could be over analyzing things. Or maybe this is just the way some of them are gonna be, but hopefully not forever [I pray not forever]
Listening to: Different People by Amerie